Good morning everyone. I’ll be honest, this post is probably more for me than anything else. One of the reasons I got into writing in the first place is because it was very self-therapeutic. I could put into words a lot of things that for various reasons I can’t say out loud. Today is just going to be one of those days; I make no apologies for it because, well, I’m me and you either love me or you don’t; ya know?
So, today I wonder just how much of a difference I am making here….So many times I have thought of stopping this blog because of a lack of interaction. I know there are thousands of these out there but I really thought my message would be more receptive. Yes, I have almost 1100 followers and I am so grateful for each of them but how many REALLY follow what I say and are being truly impacted. I hear from maybe 10 or so people. Again, very grateful for those 10 but out of 1100? It truly makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong…
I know I’m 47 years old, overweight, and have a non-traditional message but man, seems like more of an impact than around 1 percent. Now I truly know its not about the numbers for even if ONE person is being impacted its worth it. Heck, how must God feel…over 6 BILLION people just right now and I bet the numbers are even smaller than 1 percent that TRULY follow Him. It gets tiring for sure.
So yeah, I’m frustrated but alas I keep going. If nothing else I know that I am listening to myself in this vast world. I also know that God is listening and He is my source of all that I am. Maybe I need to just worry more about Him right now than how my blog is doing. Maybe there is a lesson here; with God there always is. Anyway, if you are one of my 1 percent. I’m grateful for you; thank you, and my love goes out to you for being there and taking time out of your day for a wretch like me.
Love in Christ,