DO YOU EVER ASK YOURSELF the above question? Why not me? The subject matter relating to that question could be on a range of subjects; Career, Family, Faith, but for me its for something different and maybe you can relate; my weight…
I haven’t always been heavy; when I was a kid I was relatively normal when it came to my weight. In fact, once I got through those awkward teenage years, I looked pretty good. That really was a miracle though because my Mother nor my Father cooked so pretty much my whole childhood was Burger King, McDonalds, or Wendy’s for dinner. The only time I got a somewhat healthy dinner was when I would visit my Grandparents house. Even then though it wasn’t really healthy, just not a bunch of processed junk.
So fast forward to today; as I sit here I weigh a pathetic 385 pounds. I just stopped doing the Keto thing because all it was doing was making me sick and I wasn’t losing anything anyway. One thing I have definitely noticed is that at the ripe old age of 47, losing weight has become much more difficult. There was a time where I could just cut out the crap foods and the weight would fall off; not so much any more.
People tell me all the time; “You just have to want it bad enough!” Well let me tell you, I do. I don’t enjoy looking like a walking watermelon and having every day be in pain all over. I try to hide the pain I’m in but even there I am starting to fail.
I watch these videos where people have lost tremendous amounts of weight, and for a brief moment I will get motivated, then I fall back again. So I ask myself this morning; why not me? Why is it that I always lose the motivation to keep going? Is it because of my love of the taste of food? Is it something else? I don’t know, but the frustration level has reached new heights. I am almost at the point of just saying; “Just forget it David, you’ll always be fat and probably die of a heart attack”. Trust me though, that is NOT what I want…
Friends, I told you there would be days where what I write would not be very motivational; today is one of those days. I just needed to write my feelings out as maybe that will help. Something has to give, that is all I know. For this I place it all in God’s hands and whatever happens will happen.
Thanks for reading everyone,