Falling

I feel my Enemy all around me;

The darkness is closing in;

Like quicksand in the desert

I fear I see the end.

Jesus my Lord where are you?

Alone with my thoughts I sit.

In the Enemy’s grasp I find myself,

Being pulled into a fiery pit.

Evil Lurking…

Normally my posts are very positive but today I have to be real…

I can feel the Enemy lurking right behind me..

I can smell the odor of sulfur as he whispers, God has abandoned you”…

I can feel the despair closing in..

Lord Jesus, protect me for I feel as if I’m about to break….

Evil Lurking…

Normally my posts are very positive but today I have to be real…

I can feel the Enemy lurking right behind me..

I can smell the odor of sulfur as he whispers, God has abandoned you”…

I can feel the despair closing in..

Lord Jesus, protect me for I feel as if I’m about to break….

Trust!

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Hello friends and welcome to the weekend! I hope that you all had a great week and are ready for some down time. For me, this weekend will consist of getting new tires for my car, celebrating my daughter-in-law’s birthday and hopefully celebrating a Dolphins win. Oh, there is that pesky little thing about getting ready for my surgery on Tuesday; got to start prepping tonight. How about you all? I would love to hear from you! Comment in the comment section, go to my FB page here, or shoot me an email to damar19911996@gmail.com. Ok, onward!

So, I have written about trust before but something happened yesterday and while I can’t get into specifics, the trust I had in someone is now gone and it inspired me to write about the subject again.

See for me there are two REALLY big hot points with me and trust is one of them. Included with trust is keeping one’s word. I feel like when you say you are going to do something, you should actually do it. I would have been great back in the day where million dollar deals were done just on a gentleman’s handshake. Not anymore, peoples’ word have become meaningless. We live in a world where even the closest of friends and family will lie, cheat, or throw you under the bus just to make themselves look good or to benefit themselves in some way. I know that no one is perfect, however, how hard is it to be a person of your word or not lie to those around you? Seems pretty easy but its not.

Some folks have “daddy issues” or “mommy issues”; I have “trust issues”. If I can’t trust you, then we are done. I’m not saying it would be impossible to earn that trust back, but it very rarely happens. Once that trust is gone, I literally can’t even be around you. Weird? Maybe. But in my life I need people around me that I can trust. I may not like the things you do or agree with all your positions on things, but if I can trust you, I can overlook just about anything.

Heck, maybe we really can’t ultimately trust anyone…This is what the Bible says about fully trusting.

Thus says the Lord: “Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the Lord. He is like a shrub in the desert, and shall not see any good come. He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness, in an uninhabited salt land. “Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord. He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.” The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?“- Jeremiah 17:5-12

What say you my friends? How important is trust to you? Would love to hear your feelings on this as well. Have a great Saturday my friends….

Peace, Love, and Faith,

David

 

Rough Night

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Above is actual live footage from me about 2am earlier when the pain in my hip/leg was so bad I was about to rip it out myself…The hard part right now is normally I can take ibuprofen for it but with my upcoming surgery, I have not been able to. Tylenol helps a little but not enough unfortunately.

I would continue to ask for your thoughts and prayers as Tuesday creeps up on us. I pray that through this pain would come a new beginning. A new beginning for my health and so for my life. Folks at this point I can’t even put my shoe on without contorting my body into a position that most horror movies would be proud of. The frustration level is off the charts….

I know its not the cause but being 370 pounds doesn’t help either; I pray that this new beginning on Tuesday will give me the motivation to finally overcome this lifestyle fight with food and be a testimony for what God can do once you fully commit to something. That’s it for now my friends; off to work then date night with my bride. When you get to my point in life, its the little things that keep you going. Time with my bride and a new hip sound like a good few days ahead….

Peace, Love, and Truth,

David