People will try anything to make abortion seem logical and moral. As someone that watched the soul of my mother (and my sibling) literally be ripped apart that day, there is NO reason EVER to KILL an unborn baby. NONE. I will not be afraid nor silent about this anymore…
For those that cannot fight for themselves….
A COUPLE of disclaimers first…
1. My Mother in Law is in the hospital from where I am typing this message.
2. She came in last night so I did not get to sleep until 4am and was back up here at 12 PM.
I give those disclaimers because my words may be all over the place so forgive me in advance…..
As I sit here and watch what my Mother in Law go through what she is going through, it is like a slap in the face reality check of just how frail our bodies really are. A week ago she was pretty good; today she can’t put a whole sentence together and may have a heart infection. Just like that the world does a 180 and here we are.
Must be something in the air because I myself have not felt quite right this week; almost passed out once and just have had this foreboding feeling that something is not right. Spiritual? Maybe; if it is though its manifesting itself physical which is an interesting twist in events.
Something is definitely off though; even the nurse that just came in said, “You just don’t know who or what to trust anymore”; such a sad world that now exists..A world without morals, a world without direction, and a world hanging on to itself for dear life. A world just wanting answers; answers we as believers should be giving them.
I used to have hope; hope that at some point things would change…I still know in my heart that God has already won the war but right now I feel like my head and body are swimming against a current that will engulf me at any second.
Please keep our family in our prayers; especially my Mother in Law whose immediate situation is still fluid to say the least…..
1 Timothy 1:16- “But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.”
MERCY is something that God is so desperately trying to teach me….Yesterday was an awful day and now looking back I don’t think I was fighting as much against others as I was myself. At first glance I thought I was under a huge spiritual attack (which to some extent I still do believe that) but this morning I also feel like an opportunity presented itself.
Are there those around me that seemingly do everything in their power to bring me down and make me feel awful? Yep, but what does Jesus tell us to do about those people? He gave us the ultimate example of course! As evil and corrupt as I am, He sought me out and gave me the gift of eternal life. He still to this day puts up with all my faults and all my shortcomings and does so in such a loving way. Now come back to yesterday; how did I react? Quite the opposite; I lashed back out, closed myself off, and actually for a few minutes thought I was having a heart attack from all the stress. To say I failed that lesson would be an understatement.
Actually, reflecting more, it could have been a combination of events. Satan posed the same test to Job and God agreed. I, unlike Job though, did not keep praising God, I just fell into the same trap as always. I let my emotions of the world guide me and that never works out well…
So friends, as Christ followers, we are always under the refining process. God is weeding out the nasty stuff in our lives and it is usually a painful process. I truly wish sometimes we had a heads up that the test was going to begin you know? I guess then that would defeat the purpose of the test. In any case, let us try and remember when those storms come in, of the great mercy God shows us so we can in turn show it to them. I’m praying for all of you and would ask the same in return.
Have a great Sunday everyone,
A big thank you to all as I achieved another milestone; 80,000 views! That is a lot of exposure for just a simple guy like me. Again, thank you all for your support and may God bless all of you!
Good morning everyone and Happy Sunday. I hope everyone is having a nice weekend; I am wrapping up some time with my Bride’s side of the family and headed home later this afternoon. Prayers would be appreciated as I make the 3 hour trip back home.
So, today’s message will be a little different; this one is about me. About me in the sense that I have a real problem that I know I’m not alone in; so, maybe by me telling my story it will help someone else along the way…
MY BIGGEST STRUGGLE is losing this weight. As I type this message I am pushing almost 400 pounds. I have already had one hip replacement and I am only 47 years old. When I was younger losing weight was not an issue but now times have changed and I’m just at a loss. I have started and stopped with so many different things that I am almost at the point of giving up. It’s funny because whenever I go to the doctor my bloodwork comes back perfect. You name it, my levels are in line, however, I know its just a smoke screen for my heart and body will only support this weight for so much longer….
Some will say, “you just have to want it bad enough”. Usually that statement comes from someone that is already skinny and just looking to tone up. They have never faced the struggles I have when it comes to food and that makes the whole thing harder. Sometimes, reality wins over will…Can anyone relate? I only wish the way I feel this morning, completely sore and sick to my stomach, would pop up right before I eat that pizza or candy or bad food of choice but alas it never does. All I can think about is how good the food will taste. I know I’m weak and YES I have given this to God, but I simply always lose the fight.
Again, I share this with you all not to get your sympathy but to hopefully let someone else know that may struggle with this that your not alone. I grew up with a mom whose version of cooking was picking up McDonalds, Burger King, or Wendy’s and its been downhill ever since. I just don’t know what to do anymore for I want to live as long as I can to spend as much time as possible with my family but how I get there, I just don’t know anymore…As with all things I will continue to give this to God though, praying for a miracle….
I’ve been doing this blog for over a year now and still get very little interaction. Starting to wonder if I should just stop writing here..