Falling

I feel my Enemy all around me;

The darkness is closing in;

Like quicksand in the desert

I fear I see the end.

Jesus my Lord where are you?

Alone with my thoughts I sit.

In the Enemy’s grasp I find myself,

Being pulled into a fiery pit.

Thoughts

A COUPLE of disclaimers first…

1. My Mother in Law is in the hospital from where I am typing this message.

2. She came in last night so I did not get to sleep until 4am and was back up here at 12 PM.

I give those disclaimers because my words may be all over the place so forgive me in advance…..

As I sit here and watch what my Mother in Law go through what she is going through, it is like a slap in the face reality check of just how frail our bodies really are. A week ago she was pretty good; today she can’t put a whole sentence together and may have a heart infection. Just like that the world does a 180 and here we are.

Must be something in the air because I myself have not felt quite right this week; almost passed out once and just have had this foreboding feeling that something is not right. Spiritual? Maybe; if it is though its manifesting itself physical which is an interesting twist in events.

Something is definitely off though; even the nurse that just came in said, “You just don’t know who or what to trust anymore”; such a sad world that now exists..A world without morals, a world without direction, and a world hanging on to itself for dear life. A world just wanting answers; answers we as believers should be giving them.

I used to have hope; hope that at some point things would change…I still know in my heart that God has already won the war but right now I feel like my head and body are swimming against a current that will engulf me at any second.

Please keep our family in our prayers; especially my Mother in Law whose immediate situation is still fluid to say the least…..

David

Show Mercy

1 Timothy 1:16- “But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life.”

MERCY is something that God is so desperately trying to teach me….Yesterday was an awful day and now looking back I don’t think I was fighting as much against others as I was myself. At first glance I thought I was under a huge spiritual attack (which to some extent I still do believe that) but this morning I also feel like an opportunity presented itself.

Are there those around me that seemingly do everything in their power to bring me down and make me feel awful? Yep, but what does Jesus tell us to do about those people? He gave us the ultimate example of course! As evil and corrupt as I am, He sought me out and gave me the gift of eternal life. He still to this day puts up with all my faults and all my shortcomings and does so in such a loving way. Now come back to yesterday; how did I react? Quite the opposite; I lashed back out, closed myself off, and actually for a few minutes thought I was having a heart attack from all the stress. To say I failed that lesson would be an understatement.

Actually, reflecting more, it could have been a combination of events. Satan posed the same test to Job and God agreed. I, unlike Job though, did not keep praising God, I just fell into the same trap as always. I let my emotions of the world guide me and that never works out well…

So friends, as Christ followers, we are always under the refining process. God is weeding out the nasty stuff in our lives and it is usually a painful process. I truly wish sometimes we had a heads up that the test was going to begin you know? I guess then that would defeat the purpose of the test. In any case, let us try and remember when those storms come in, of the great mercy God shows us so we can in turn show it to them. I’m praying for all of you and would ask the same in return.

Have a great Sunday everyone,

David

Unsure…

Hadn’t talked to my Dad in 11 years. We had a bad falling out. Found out tonight he died back in 2014. Not sure how to feel tonight..

Might not be a another post for a few days; need to process this…

I Wonder…

Good morning everyone. I’ll be honest, this post is probably more for me than anything else. One of the reasons I got into writing in the first place is because it was very self-therapeutic. I could put into words a lot of things that for various reasons I can’t say out loud. Today is just going to be one of those days; I make no apologies for it because, well, I’m me and you either love me or you don’t; ya know?

So, today I wonder just how much of a difference I am making here….So many times I have thought of stopping this blog because of a lack of interaction. I know there are thousands of these out there but I really thought my message would be more receptive. Yes, I have almost 1100 followers and I am so grateful for each of them but how many REALLY follow what I say and are being truly impacted. I hear from maybe 10 or so people. Again, very grateful for those 10 but out of 1100? It truly makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong…

I know I’m 47 years old, overweight, and have a non-traditional message but man, seems like more of an impact than around 1 percent. Now I truly know its not about the numbers for even if ONE person is being impacted its worth it. Heck, how must God feel…over 6 BILLION people just right now and I bet the numbers are even smaller than 1 percent that TRULY follow Him. It gets tiring for sure.

So yeah, I’m frustrated but alas I keep going. If nothing else I know that I am listening to myself in this vast world. I also know that God is listening and He is my source of all that I am. Maybe I need to just worry more about Him right now than how my blog is doing. Maybe there is a lesson here; with God there always is. Anyway, if you are one of my 1 percent. I’m grateful for you; thank you, and my love goes out to you for being there and taking time out of your day for a wretch like me.

Love in Christ,

David

I Wonder…

Good morning everyone. I’ll be honest, this post is probably more for me than anything else. One of the reasons I got into writing in the first place is because it was very self-therapeutic. I could put into words a lot of things that for various reasons I can’t say out loud. Today is just going to be one of those days; I make no apologies for it because, well, I’m me and you either love me or you don’t; ya know?

So, today I wonder just how much of a difference I am making here….So many times I have thought of stopping this blog because of a lack of interaction. I know there are thousands of these out there but I really thought my message would be more receptive. Yes, I have almost 1100 followers and I am so grateful for each of them but how many REALLY follow what I say and are being truly impacted. I hear from maybe 10 or so people. Again, very grateful for those 10 but out of 1100? It truly makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong…

I know I’m 47 years old, overweight, and have a non-traditional message but man, seems like more of an impact than around 1 percent. Now I truly know its not about the numbers for even if ONE person is being impacted its worth it. Heck, how must God feel…over 6 BILLION people just right now and I bet the numbers are even smaller than 1 percent that TRULY follow Him. It gets tiring for sure.

So yeah, I’m frustrated but alas I keep going. If nothing else I know that I am listening to myself in this vast world. I also know that God is listening and He is my source of all that I am. Maybe I need to just worry more about Him right now than how my blog is doing. Maybe there is a lesson here; with God there always is. Anyway, if you are one of my 1 percent. I’m grateful for you; thank you, and my love goes out to you for being there and taking time out of your day for a wretch like me.

Love in Christ,

David