Why Not Me?

DO YOU EVER ASK YOURSELF the above question? Why not me? The subject matter relating to that question could be on a range of subjects; Career, Family, Faith, but for me its for something different and maybe you can relate; my weight…

I haven’t always been heavy; when I was a kid I was relatively normal when it came to my weight. In fact, once I got through those awkward teenage years, I looked pretty good. That really was a miracle though because my Mother nor my Father cooked so pretty much my whole childhood was Burger King, McDonalds, or Wendy’s for dinner. The only time I got a somewhat healthy dinner was when I would visit my Grandparents house. Even then though it wasn’t really healthy, just not a bunch of processed junk.

So fast forward to today; as I sit here I weigh a pathetic 385 pounds. I just stopped doing the Keto thing because all it was doing was making me sick and I wasn’t losing anything anyway. One thing I have definitely noticed is that at the ripe old age of 47, losing weight has become much more difficult. There was a time where I could just cut out the crap foods and the weight would fall off; not so much any more.

People tell me all the time; “You just have to want it bad enough!” Well let me tell you, I do. I don’t enjoy looking like a walking watermelon and having every day be in pain all over. I try to hide the pain I’m in but even there I am starting to fail.

I watch these videos where people have lost tremendous amounts of weight, and for a brief moment I will get motivated, then I fall back again. So I ask myself this morning; why not me? Why is it that I always lose the motivation to keep going? Is it because of my love of the taste of food? Is it something else? I don’t know, but the frustration level has reached new heights. I am almost at the point of just saying; “Just forget it David, you’ll always be fat and probably die of a heart attack”. Trust me though, that is NOT what I want…

Friends, I told you there would be days where what I write would not be very motivational; today is one of those days. I just needed to write my feelings out as maybe that will help. Something has to give, that is all I know. For this I place it all in God’s hands and whatever happens will happen.

Thanks for reading everyone,

David

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Flying Solo

Often times you will go at it alone; at least from a human perspective. It’s ok though, we most always do what is right!

Blessings,

David

My Struggle

Good morning everyone and Happy Sunday. I hope everyone is having a nice weekend; I am wrapping up some time with my Bride’s side of the family and headed home later this afternoon. Prayers would be appreciated as I make the 3 hour trip back home.

So, today’s message will be a little different; this one is about me. About me in the sense that I have a real problem that I know I’m not alone in; so, maybe by me telling my story it will help someone else along the way…

MY BIGGEST STRUGGLE is losing this weight. As I type this message I am pushing almost 400 pounds. I have already had one hip replacement and I am only 47 years old. When I was younger losing weight was not an issue but now times have changed and I’m just at a loss. I have started and stopped with so many different things that I am almost at the point of giving up. It’s funny because whenever I go to the doctor my bloodwork comes back perfect. You name it, my levels are in line, however, I know its just a smoke screen for my heart and body will only support this weight for so much longer….

Some will say, “you just have to want it bad enough”. Usually that statement comes from someone that is already skinny and just looking to tone up. They have never faced the struggles I have when it comes to food and that makes the whole thing harder. Sometimes, reality wins over will…Can anyone relate? I only wish the way I feel this morning, completely sore and sick to my stomach, would pop up right before I eat that pizza or candy or bad food of choice but alas it never does. All I can think about is how good the food will taste. I know I’m weak and YES I have given this to God, but I simply always lose the fight.

Again, I share this with you all not to get your sympathy but to hopefully let someone else know that may struggle with this that your not alone. I grew up with a mom whose version of cooking was picking up McDonalds, Burger King, or Wendy’s and its been downhill ever since. I just don’t know what to do anymore for I want to live as long as I can to spend as much time as possible with my family but how I get there, I just don’t know anymore…As with all things I will continue to give this to God though, praying for a miracle….

Blessings,

David

You Are Beautiful!

Don’t let your weight or the image the world has constructed for you ever make you doubt your beauty. True beauty comes from within and will be reflected in how you live your life for God; not what the scale says, Amen?

Be confident in who God made you to be!

David

You Are Beautiful!

Don’t let your weight or the image the world has constructed for you ever make you doubt your beauty. True beauty comes from within and will be reflected in how you live your life for God; not what the scale says, Amen?

Be confident in who God made you to be!

David